Well recently my timing have become bad to worst as I rarely have time to do anything at all. I have enough time to do this and that, when I realize that I have to spare time for someone or something I feel drained out already. Yet still I try my best to make people pleased but often as hard as I try, I fail the same extend. It's depressing to the extend that I feel so tired.
But this post is supose to be about the moment I was suposed to be satisfied with my life. LOL ok ok, coming back to the topic. I think I have managed to achieve and live a few dreams on my own more than once. I am a person who thinks living the dream is talking the real deal. So I tend to do things that I have dreamed of doing hence I think I've felt satisfied quite some times.
1 of my proudest moment was a few years back. When I went to Japan with no knowledge of their language while my peers had months and years of learning experience. Hence being the odd 1 left out, I needed a lot of help for translation from friends who spoke english whenever I had an encounter with a Japanese. It made life difficult for me as well anyone who spoke english around me.
Then surprisingly enough it took me merely 3 months to pick up the language. From understanding, reading, and writing normal daily conversation became almost close to natural to me. I think the time I spend learning the language is kinda blur to me. But my life in Japan is very fresh in my memories.
1 thing that I think I miss the most is those times and probably a part where I was satisfied with my life until everything came crumbling on me. I've felt that regardless of whatever that I feel is working out for me, crumbled on me eventually. At some point I even felt I was cursed or a big failure.
Yet still, ever since I think I've grown a lot and matured to see the positive side of these things. So now reminiscing those times, I don't feel depressed or regrets but only glad that I actually went through with all of those. Because the experience that I've got of life, is way more than most people of my age group. Due to this probably the way I see life is different compared to others. This kinda makes people to misunderstand me most the time maybe because of the differences of our point of views.
Confusing? Alright then I rather not confuse you all no more. Plus this lappie I hijacked to blog is running outa battery. So sorry guys for the M.I.A. state but I am working on it. Thanks for the support once again to my readers.
Looking forward for more time to blog out more interesting stuffs that's been happening in my life! So till then, bye bye!
Monday, June 27, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Busy Busy Days....
I understand that I haven't been updating much lately and I supose probably some of the readers just got bored with what I've left so far. This is not a proper update but I am here to tell you guys that I am really sorry for the slow updates as I've been so tired with so much drama going in my life right now.
Things that I can't say out, things that I can't avoid, everything seems to follow me all the way as much as how much I would like them to go away and leave me in peace. Well I supose life can be a bitch at times and I just feel like the bitch stuck to me for quite some time.
Yet still I wouldn't exactly say that I've had a bad time all the way, as I have my own share of good luck and all. Things at these moment are moving slowly, though I would love for it to pass by me at the pace I would like it to. Unfortunately we can't control time, though we get to choose only the path that we decide to walk on.
I've chosen a path which I am still finding it hard to believe till now how I actually managed to come into terms with. I made a huge step in my life which I don't think I would've done a few months back. Things have split into different chapters right now, with some older chapter being eased of my mine while some new ones come banging at the door.
Seriously, at the rate that I am actually going right now, I don't even know what and where would I be in the next 6 months! That's how crazy things have been with me. Work being as usual BUSY BUSY and just plain BUSY. So after work basically am drained out so I don't really do much after work. Coming home is already quite depressing so with all the drama at work, plus with that of at home I think it's worse than following 90210 series. (90210 fans no offense meant here yea.... *wink*)
I think I am at the peak of my maturing cycle as everything about me is starting change rapidly. The way I think, I act, I feel and etc seems to be so different compared to me of 6 months ago. And hey, 2011 is just freaking 6 months old?! So much changes in a span of just 6 months is freaky. But I would say that this part of my life seems to be going through new phase.
Falling out of favor with different sets of people, work, love, and etc has made me a whole new person. Going through all these isn't a new thing for me as throughout I have experienced this but every single time it's a whole new experience and now with what I have earned through what life has offered me, I think I am ready to take my life into the next level.
Chasing my dreams have always been a passion for me. And right now, I have a few that I would like to achieve and hopefully with everyone's blessing, I would be able to reach them with flying colours!
So I supose I spoke a bit too much emo stuff already. But I have decided that I would wanna let my readers know more about me little by little from here. I would really love to meet everyone of you because I would love to get feedbacks, and also work harder to be better for you all! I have also been wondering if I should take up a writing job that was offered to me recently. What do you all think? Think I can handle that? Please let me know.... =)
And for next post would be about the awesome team outing I had with my colleagues at Sunway Lagoon Theme Park! Still waiting for the pics to be up so I could write about it. So hopefully in the next few days, they will be up. *wink* Cheer people!
Psst : Don't bother those pics. I just love them cz I think they are so adorable!! XD
Things that I can't say out, things that I can't avoid, everything seems to follow me all the way as much as how much I would like them to go away and leave me in peace. Well I supose life can be a bitch at times and I just feel like the bitch stuck to me for quite some time.
Yet still I wouldn't exactly say that I've had a bad time all the way, as I have my own share of good luck and all. Things at these moment are moving slowly, though I would love for it to pass by me at the pace I would like it to. Unfortunately we can't control time, though we get to choose only the path that we decide to walk on.
I've chosen a path which I am still finding it hard to believe till now how I actually managed to come into terms with. I made a huge step in my life which I don't think I would've done a few months back. Things have split into different chapters right now, with some older chapter being eased of my mine while some new ones come banging at the door.
Seriously, at the rate that I am actually going right now, I don't even know what and where would I be in the next 6 months! That's how crazy things have been with me. Work being as usual BUSY BUSY and just plain BUSY. So after work basically am drained out so I don't really do much after work. Coming home is already quite depressing so with all the drama at work, plus with that of at home I think it's worse than following 90210 series. (90210 fans no offense meant here yea.... *wink*)
I think I am at the peak of my maturing cycle as everything about me is starting change rapidly. The way I think, I act, I feel and etc seems to be so different compared to me of 6 months ago. And hey, 2011 is just freaking 6 months old?! So much changes in a span of just 6 months is freaky. But I would say that this part of my life seems to be going through new phase.
Falling out of favor with different sets of people, work, love, and etc has made me a whole new person. Going through all these isn't a new thing for me as throughout I have experienced this but every single time it's a whole new experience and now with what I have earned through what life has offered me, I think I am ready to take my life into the next level.
Chasing my dreams have always been a passion for me. And right now, I have a few that I would like to achieve and hopefully with everyone's blessing, I would be able to reach them with flying colours!
So I supose I spoke a bit too much emo stuff already. But I have decided that I would wanna let my readers know more about me little by little from here. I would really love to meet everyone of you because I would love to get feedbacks, and also work harder to be better for you all! I have also been wondering if I should take up a writing job that was offered to me recently. What do you all think? Think I can handle that? Please let me know.... =)
And for next post would be about the awesome team outing I had with my colleagues at Sunway Lagoon Theme Park! Still waiting for the pics to be up so I could write about it. So hopefully in the next few days, they will be up. *wink* Cheer people!
Psst : Don't bother those pics. I just love them cz I think they are so adorable!! XD
Monday, June 6, 2011
Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
LOL kinda abit late for Day 01 post right? I know. Well there is nothing to hide anymore as now I know exactly what my status is. I am SINGLE! Probably that might have got a few eyes popped out big, cause a lot of people that knew me gave the exact same reactions.
I finally got myself out of my previous relationship of 2 and half years. Though a lot of people thought it was a bad relationship, in my point of view, I think that was 1 of my best memories in my life. Probably you might wonder than why end it right? Sometimes, you have to let go to be able to learn to move forward.
I think the previous relationship really made me a whole new person in so many ways. How my temper is under control, how I try to read a situation, how I think and act and etc. I wouldn't deny the fact that I still miss her, love her but I had to let go.
I am selfish. I couldn't get what I wanted and that got me frustrated. What I wanted so badly that I got frustrated? You might wonder but I ain't telling... *wink wink* Get to know me better than you will get the answer. Deal?
Nobody can actually comprehend the bond we shared, even us. Because regardless of what happened, we ended up going back to each other all the time. We had a huge load of hurdles to pass and I would say we came through quite well most of the time.
Now, after the whole issue I find things are very different. Life is like a whole new experience to me. Meeting new people, going out on random dates (friendly dates), doing crazy things and all seems to be whole new thing for me. I don't remember the time when I last felt I wasn't exactly off a relationship as I was always in 1.
At this point of time, I ain't gonna rush into a relationship. I am going to take things at my own pace this time around. If I meet someone who is suitable, or that someone comes back with what I want maybe it might change my mind. Is that a hint? I seriously don't know.
I know the fact that walking away from this relationship was the biggest ever move I've ever made in my life in 23 years! Might sound ridiculous to most but that's the truth. Yet still, I think I had 1 of the best moments in my life with her and I ought to thank her for it.
Thank you sayang! I had the best time with you and I will cherish those memories! *hugs*
Wait! I am supose to be talking about my single life right? LOL ok coming back to the topic!
Single life, hmm.... Let me see, I've been on and off work, sleep, yum cha, random dates, and 2 photoshoots! Basically that's all I been doing! And the dates, was merely anything close to romantic. I'd say too friendly to have anything going on. And I am actually looking for more as meeting new people gives new things for me talk about, new experiences, and I don't know what else. LOL
So if you think you wanna know me, then buzz me up and we shall arrange for a meet up! =)
Sorry for this backdated post guys. And not to forget, I am really sorry as I am unable to update as much recently with work, being sick, and a lot more other stuffs. Once settled with things, I am sure you can hope for more doses from me! =)
I finally got myself out of my previous relationship of 2 and half years. Though a lot of people thought it was a bad relationship, in my point of view, I think that was 1 of my best memories in my life. Probably you might wonder than why end it right? Sometimes, you have to let go to be able to learn to move forward.
I think the previous relationship really made me a whole new person in so many ways. How my temper is under control, how I try to read a situation, how I think and act and etc. I wouldn't deny the fact that I still miss her, love her but I had to let go.
I am selfish. I couldn't get what I wanted and that got me frustrated. What I wanted so badly that I got frustrated? You might wonder but I ain't telling... *wink wink* Get to know me better than you will get the answer. Deal?
Nobody can actually comprehend the bond we shared, even us. Because regardless of what happened, we ended up going back to each other all the time. We had a huge load of hurdles to pass and I would say we came through quite well most of the time.
Now, after the whole issue I find things are very different. Life is like a whole new experience to me. Meeting new people, going out on random dates (friendly dates), doing crazy things and all seems to be whole new thing for me. I don't remember the time when I last felt I wasn't exactly off a relationship as I was always in 1.
At this point of time, I ain't gonna rush into a relationship. I am going to take things at my own pace this time around. If I meet someone who is suitable, or that someone comes back with what I want maybe it might change my mind. Is that a hint? I seriously don't know.
I know the fact that walking away from this relationship was the biggest ever move I've ever made in my life in 23 years! Might sound ridiculous to most but that's the truth. Yet still, I think I had 1 of the best moments in my life with her and I ought to thank her for it.
Thank you sayang! I had the best time with you and I will cherish those memories! *hugs*
Wait! I am supose to be talking about my single life right? LOL ok coming back to the topic!
Single life, hmm.... Let me see, I've been on and off work, sleep, yum cha, random dates, and 2 photoshoots! Basically that's all I been doing! And the dates, was merely anything close to romantic. I'd say too friendly to have anything going on. And I am actually looking for more as meeting new people gives new things for me talk about, new experiences, and I don't know what else. LOL
So if you think you wanna know me, then buzz me up and we shall arrange for a meet up! =)
Sorry for this backdated post guys. And not to forget, I am really sorry as I am unable to update as much recently with work, being sick, and a lot more other stuffs. Once settled with things, I am sure you can hope for more doses from me! =)
Sunday, June 5, 2011
What are words~
I think most of the people would already know when you saw the title of what this post all means. Yes Chris Mendoza took me away with this song. Before I say more about the song, I shall share a little story about this wonderful song 1st.
At the heart of "What Are Words" are lyrics inspired by things Chris Medina said and did during the audition and Hollywood week portions of the show. When Chris Medina sings "what kind of guy would I be/if I was to leave when you need me most," that lyric came straight from his own mouth when describing his dedication to helping his fiance Juliana overcome the injuries sustained in her car accident.
The story of this song as touching as the lyrics itself, proves that pure LOVE still exist! I won't hide how much this song touched my soul. It's just wonderfully beautiful. What more can one do to express the love they have for that 1 person? Well this song was written inspired by his fiancee's story, he recorded it few days after his elimination from American Idol 10.
Ok am done with my blah's for now. Enjoy the song people!
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close
At the heart of "What Are Words" are lyrics inspired by things Chris Medina said and did during the audition and Hollywood week portions of the show. When Chris Medina sings "what kind of guy would I be/if I was to leave when you need me most," that lyric came straight from his own mouth when describing his dedication to helping his fiance Juliana overcome the injuries sustained in her car accident.
The story of this song as touching as the lyrics itself, proves that pure LOVE still exist! I won't hide how much this song touched my soul. It's just wonderfully beautiful. What more can one do to express the love they have for that 1 person? Well this song was written inspired by his fiancee's story, he recorded it few days after his elimination from American Idol 10.
Ok am done with my blah's for now. Enjoy the song people!
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I'm forever keeping my angel close
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