Lonely~

Well 1st I came across this lyrics on my ex's twitter then I thought it seemed nice so checked out that song and kinda got hooked up to it. But then it hit me that I actually had more than enough reasons to be attached to this song.

Hehehe... no details would be uncovered here... =P

Anyways here is the video of the song and lyrics with the translation below the vid! Listen and enjoy guys!!




[CL] 지금 내가 하는 얘기 널 아프게 할지 몰라
아마 날 죽도록 미워하게 될꺼야

[민지] 내가 예전 같지 않다던 네 말 모두 틀린 말은 아니야
나도 변해버린 내가 낯 설기만해

[다라] 너무 착한 넌데 넌 그대로인데 오

[CL] I don’t know I don’t know내가 왜 이러는지

[다라] 그토록 사랑했는데 넌 여기 있는데 오

[민지] I don’t know

[다라] 이제 날 찾고 싶어

[봄] Baby I’m sorry 너와 있어도 난 Lonely사랑하긴 내가 부족한가봐 이런 못난 날 용서해

[민지] I’m sorry 이게 너와 나의 Story사랑이란 내겐 과분한가봐 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[봄] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] 네가 잘못한게 아냐 내가 이상한거야
이미 오래 전부터 난 준비 했나봐 이별을

[봄] 정말 잘해주고 싶었는데 하필 사랑 앞에서는 왜
이렇게 한없이 작아지고 외로운지

[다라] 너무 착한 넌데 넌 그대로인데 오

[CL] I don’t know I don’t know내가 왜 이러는지

[다라] 그토록 사랑했는데 넌 여기 있는데 오

[CL] I don’t know

[다라] 이제 날 찾고 싶어

[CL] Baby I’m sorry 너와 있어도 난 Lonely사랑하긴 내가 부족한가봐 이런 못난 날 용서해

[민지] I’m sorry 이게 너와 나의 Story사랑이란 내겐 과분한가봐 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[민지] Cuz I’m just another girl이 밤이 외로워 난
[봄] 더는 견딜 수 없어 Good bye

[다라] Cuz I’m just another girl
[CL] 너무나 외로워
[봄] 지금 네 곁에 있어도
Baby I’m so lonely

[민지] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely




Translation
[CL]
The words I'm saying right now, I don't know if they'll hurt you
They'll probably make you hate me forever

[MINZY]
You, saying that I'm not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well

[DARA]
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh

[CL] I don't know I don't know
Why I am like this
[DARA] We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
[MINZY] I don't know
[DARA] I want to find myself now

[BOM]
Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am

[MINZY]
I'm sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[BOM]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL]
You didn't do anything wrong, I'm the strange one
It seems I've already been prepared long ago, for our breakup

[BOM]
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I'm confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly

[DARA]
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh

[CL]
I don't know I don't know
Why I am like this

[DARA] We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
[CL] I don't know
[DARA] I want to find myself now

[CL]
Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am

[MINZY]
I'm sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL]
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[MINZY]
Cuz I'm just another girl
This night is lonely, I

[BOM] Can't take any more, Good bye
[DARA] Cuz I'm just another girl
[CL] I'm so lonely
[BOM] Even though I'm by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely

[MINZY] Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

[CL] Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely




Hope u guys love this song. I am not much of a youtube junkie but through this song, i came across a few nice songs too. Soon when I've got more time I would certainly put it all up together for you guys to enjoy!!

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and kiss

Wow... What a topic! Now it got me going back digging through tons and tons of memories trying to remember them. Think I can remember tiny bity stuff about my 1st experiences though. *chuckles*

If I ain't mistaken, my 1st love would be someone I would call as "Black Rose" with whom I fell in love with at 1st sight. I am a shy person when it comes to love and all. *blush* I think I was about 11 years old when it happened when I 1st laid my eyes on her. Gosh I still have those goosebumps!! LOL

We were from 2 different family background and basically our parents were not exactly friends but rivals. Sounds like a tragic story ? Anyways, since I saw her, I think I went totally "goo goo gaa gaa" over her. Anything I did, didn't really go well due to my new found feelings. I got my 1st chance to talk to her just a couple of weeks later where there was some classical dance show which we went to watch.

Surprisingly enough, her seat and mine were next to each other. So I took that chance to talk to her and got to know her. Think a few days later we both got hooked up with each other. Though I honestly can't remember how long it lasted, it was a great relationship. I know at 11 years old, what can would I know about love?

But that particular relationship actually thought me a lot about how to love a person. The sad thing is that I never learned how to love a person enough as whenever I fell, I fell too deep. The deeper you fall, the deeper the scar they say. Though I've moved on from so many relationships, I still carry the good memories and the scars along the way. Tried to forget but history just kept repeating itself on me that I gave up trying to forget.


Moving onto my 1st kiss experience, I think I got my 1st kiss under a full moon at exactly 12am of my birthday 14th February. The 1st and last valentines day that I ever got to celebrate. Been wanting to celebrate it so badly with that special someone but it just never seemed to happen. Hoped and got hurt.

Ish, keep getting to the wrong side. *face palm*

I remember we were counting down for my birthday under the full moon, at the highest hill nearby a coastal highway. There was a shooting star exactly few seconds before 12am so being the young and silly kid, I closed my eyes making my wish. Halfway through my wish, I got my 1st kiss and birthday wish.

I don't know if it was a curse or she wished that I would not celebrate valentines with anyone else, things never worked out for any other valentines days ever since. It's been 8 years since. Somehow we were forced to break up when she moved away all of sudden. That was the last I ever saw nor heard from her. Wonderful girl she was.

Hmm... Did I cover the topic? Hehehe... Not gonna give out too much details of course! =P  Now don't you all think too far yea.... Fortunately enough I got to write so soon. Though I would have loved to write about something else, since I've been taking forever to finish this thought I'd go on with this challenge 1st.

Since this mean there is more stories are coming by, stay tuned guys!! Thanks for the support once again! *bows* Signing out for today.

Day 09 - How you hope your future be like

Well here I am again going at it with the 30 days challenge. Yea I've been taking forever to finish up, ain't I? Thousand apologize my fellow readers, there has been a lot of things that's gone out in my life. Growing up, becoming matured, planning stuff and blah blah. I hope I'd be able to write them when I am ready.

Anyways, coming back to the topic "How you hope you future be like" . Can I say, I wanna have a huge mansion with a collection of all the super cars and bikes, a special wardrobe to keep all my clothes and shoes, all the cool gadgets in the world, and blah blah? =P

Just joking. I think I would like to find my rhythm in life where career matters. Of course along the way I would love to meet someone who could eventually sweep me off my feet away. Though it's been quite some time since I've moved, I think I still miss certain things from then. But I do know that going back is just wasting whatever effort and work that I've actually put up.

Since I've got Scarlet, (which is my 1st ever bike!!) things seem kinda different for me. I think I've grown up but at the same time I think I am still the old me somehow. Confusing? It's okay I know how it feels. It took me sometime to get in par with that too. LOL

I am looking to set my own business and would love to build a huge network all around the world. Stamp a mark of me so that I would be able to help those people who needs help. Yea that's been my ultimate dream since as far as I could remember.

It's not anyone's fault that they've been born in a poor family or not a great environment and it's also not their fault too if they don't get the resources they need to build them. Even me, at once I struggled to get some student scholarship so that I'd be able to chase my dreams only to be broken to bits and pieces which kinda ended my last ever flame to study. (am a person who hates studies)

So I think there are a lot of them out there who needs help. Genuinely and desperately needs help! I would love to be there to rescue their hopes and dreams. Money comes and money goes but wouldn't it be nice if you know it went for a good reason?

Last but not least, I would love to get married of course! Simple and nice but big and HUGE party to kick off my union day with future wife. And of course I would love to have my juniors! Though having kids comes with great responsiblity, I think I could handle it.

Though am not sure if I actually fulfilled the title, I hope I didn't bore you guys. *wink* Once again, sorry about the pics. They are just so adorable!! <3

Scarlet~!

Finally after so long, now am back here to give you all a teaser post about something that I've been working on recently. Though I didn't really have much chance to take pictures, I promise that I will unveil my baby Scarlet more officially later on.

Well this is the pic that I took when I 1st set my eyes on her. Sexy baby, ain't she? Had to wait 3 hours to get my hands on her but all the anger, frustration all was just gone the moment she pulled up.

Then, all the way from Klang I brought her home. That was like the best moment and feeling I've had in such a long time. So this is just a teaser! So wait for the real post to come up guys!! And there are more shockers coming too!!

Secret bout girls~

I learned this almost 2 years plus ago when I first got to know more my ex personally cause we only met for the 2nd time that time but I was madly in love with her. So I wanted to learn a bit more of girls so that I'd be able to handle her regardless the situation.

So hope you guys enjoy reading it and guys would be able to learn some info about them, the ladies.

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

- Unknown

 Well girls are generally soft creatures compared to guys. Though times are changing and there are a lot of strong females living right now, they still need the special care. They eager for such tender touch of feelings, words, and affection.

  

But regardless guy or girl, everyone loves to see the pretty elegant ladies strutting around. But we do have ego clashes a lot these days. These things make our world a living hell as people break each others hearts due to a lot reasons. Since previously I've posted about 20 things guys should never do to girls before, I hope this post would help make life easier for both the guys and girls.

Cheers all!!

Second Chances: I Will Never Take You For Granted Again

The following story was written for entertainment purposes only. It is a fictional work derived from the mind of the writer and in no way should be taken as a factual account of any past or planned event. Anyone mentioned in this story is done so in a fictional fashion. Any names used are purely coincidental and does not mean that the characters have any life outside the writer’s imagination.

I strongly advise you to only read what you are personally comfortable with. I will not feel personally responsible for any discomfort you feel after reading my post since I have given you ample warning to its content. Once again the following post is meant to be read by mature audiences capable of making consensual decisions. If this is not you please stop reading immediately.
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I stood staring out the window waiting as I had done so many evenings before. He was late again but this was really no surprise; he is late frequently. In fact Jay rarely ever arrived home on time. I normally do not allow myself to get angry about it because love helps people accept your lover’s inadequacies, but this night as I watched my ice cream cake melt and the lasagna grow cold I lost myself in anger. I knew my anger would never change anything but it felt good to lose myself in the passionate fury.

As I stood there in my lace lingerie and high heeled shoes I thought about how many times he had been late over the last year but it was always with a good excuse. Minutes turned into an hour as my high heeled shoes impatiently tapped against the hardwood floors.

Finally I heard a car outside and then a knock on the door. I thought he must have forgotten his key and ran to the door to answer it. Two men in full military uniform were standing at my front door. I grab the curtain to hide my body. They introduce themselves to me and I reciprocated. I didn’t hear anything after the older man said, “Dreadfully sorry ma’am…” I stood there still half dressed with the curtain across my half naked body.

Just as the men walked away my cell phone rings and he is on the other end. “I was called into a last minute meeting sweetheart. I will be home soon.” Now the man’s words came to me clearly, “Dreadfully sorry ma’am to inconvenience you. We have the wrong address.” I watched in deep sorrow as the car pulled into my neighbor’s driveway; however I felt like I was given a second chance to show him how much I love him and leave the petty jealousies and anger behind. Isn’t life really so much more valuable to me than cold food? I can always warm it in the microwave but once he is gone that is forever.

I was waiting for him at the door as he arrived. I wrapped myself around him as he carried me through the house removing his uniform as we went. I remained wrapped around him the rest of the night as I held him tighter than ever before. This day was a turning point in our relationship and I will never take him for granted again. I am a very lucky woman to have him in my life and I will never forget that again.