I Don't Know

Once again am back here with another song that has captured my heart. Although I have said that I have decided on so many things, there still are things holding me back. But words doesn't come out as how I'd wish to convey them.

Hence I decided to pick this song which I'd been hearing in Heartstrings Drama. Oh yes, I am yet to finish watching it yet. Probably a day or 2 more then I'd be done with it though.

So here is the song that spoke my heart.

모르나 봐 

(M 시그널)

그댈 만나고 사랑을 하고 그런 사랑에 아파만 하고

Keudael mannago sarangeul hago keureon sarangae apaman hago

다가서지도 못한 채 바라보기만 하는 난 바보인가 봐요

Dagaseojido muthanche barabogiman haneun nan pabo ingga boa yo

그대가 울면 나도 울었고 그대 웃으면 나도 웃어요

Keudaega ulmyeon nado ureotgo keudae useumyeon nado useoyo

어린아이처럼 마냥 그대만 따라 하는 난 바보인가 봐

Orin a ee cheoreom ma nyang keudaeman ddara haneun nan pabo ingga boa

사랑한다고 말해도 못 듣나 봐

Saranghandago marhaedo mot deunna boa

사랑이라고 말해도 모르나 봐

Sarangirago marhaedo moreuna boa

가슴에 흐르는 내 눈물을 그댄 볼 수 없나 봐

Kaseumae heureuneun nae nunmureul keudaen bul su omna boa

그대 이름 불러봐도 못 듣나 봐

Keudae eereum bulleo boado mot deunna boa

그대뿐이라고 해도 모르나 봐

Keu dae ppunirago haedo moreuna boa

내 눈먼 사랑은 한심한 사랑은 할 수 없나 봐

Nae nun meon sarangeun hanshimhan sarangeun halsu omna boa

한번 이라도 돌아봐줘요 그대 뒤에서 내가 있어요

Hanbeon eerado ddoraboa juoyo keudae dwiyeseo naega isseoyo

다른 사랑에 지칠 때 다른 사랑에 아플 때 한번이라도

Ddareun sarangae jichil ddae ddareun sarangae apeul ddae hanbeonirado

사랑한다고 말해도 못 듣나 봐

Saranghandago marhaedo mot deunna boa

사랑이라고 말해도 모르나 봐

Sarangirago marhaedo moreuna boa

가슴에 흐르는 내 눈물을 그댄 볼 수 없나 봐

Kaseumae heureuneun nae nunmureul keuddaen bulsu omna boa

그대 이름 불러봐도 못 듣나 봐

Keudae eereum bulleo boado mut deunna boa

그대뿐이라고 해도 모르나 봐

Keudae ppunirago haedo moreuna boa

내 눈먼 사랑은 한심한 사랑은

Nae nunmeon sarangeun hanshimhan sarangeun

오늘도 수천 번 그댈 불러봐요

Oneuldo sucheon beon keudael bulleo boayo

못 듣는 것도 알면서 불러봐요

Mot deunneun keotto almyeonseo bulleo boa yo

그대를 사랑하니까 나를 봐요

Keudaereul saranghanikka nareul boayo

그대만 사랑하니까 내게 와요

Keudaeman saranghanikka naegae wayo

한걸음만 오면 그 자리에서 나 기다릴게요

Hangeoreum man omyeon keu chariyaeseona kidarilkaeyo

그대밖에는 몰라서 미안해요

Keudae bakkaeneun mullaseo mianhaeyo

그대가 아니면 나는 안되니까

Keudaega animyeon naneun andwenikka

지독한 사랑이 그대만 불러요 그댄 모르죠

Jidokhan sarangi keudaeman bulleoyo keudaen moreujyo

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English Translation:

You Don’t Know 

(M Signal)

I met you, loved you and hurt by that love

Just looking at you without being beside you, I’m a fool.

When you cried, I cried. When you smiled, I smiled.

Like a child, just following you whatever you do, I’m a fool.

I love you but you can’t hear it

I love you but you don’t know it

I shed teardrops in my heart but you don’t see it

I call out your name but you  can’t hear it.

You are the only one for me but you don’t know it.

My love is blind, my love is poignant, and I can’t do that.

Just turn around and I’m right here behind you.

When you’re tired of someone else’s  love, hurt by someone else’s love

Just turn around once.

I love you but you can’t hear it

I love you but you don’t know it

I shed teardrops in my heart but you don’t see it

I call out your name but you can’t hear it.

You are the only one but you don’t know it.

My love is blind, my love is poignant, and I can’t do that.

Today I call you a thousand times..

Even though you can’t hear it.

I love you so, please look at me

I love you so, please come to me

Please come one step closer, I will wait for you.

I’m sorry because I only know you

I’m nothing without you.

Because of this bitter love, I call for you.

You don’t know…

NOTE: It is normal to have problems during relationships and it is normal that things may not go as you wish but there are ways to solve them. We may never know our partner's problems completely and may jump onto our own conclusions. We are just human beings and it's normal. But because of some petty issues, don't throw away that person you love and love itself because you may never know if it was the 1 that you'd have been longing for. 

There is no remorse nor point in crying over spilled milk but there is still ways of mending a relationships because wounds can always heal, and scars can go away. If you lost love, chances are it may never be the same anymore. Good luck to my fellow friends who are battling it out. *hugs to all*

What should I do now~

It was never my intention to hurt you. I love you. I still do and will not stop loving you but you gave me no other option than to let you go.

It is time to move~

Once again am back here today but although the topic sounds like a potential emo post coming up, I am pretty much feeling okay about this. Just felt that this is the only way I could convey what I wanted to say as I am not being given the chance to do it right.

I have come to realize a lot of things recently and basically I just want to let it all out as I really would like to have a new start and lead my life on.

It's been a difficult period of time for the past few months as I was trying to pick myself back up after that particular night. I still remember that time when you'd won't even wanna look at my face.

"We were both young when I first saw you. I close my eyes and the flashback starts~" - Love Story (Taylor Swift). I still remember everything as if it wasn't that long ago since we knew each other.

I'm not going to stress over you anymore. I still remember the promise I made to you, I told you I'd never ask you to choose between me and your family. Although there times when I seemed to have forgotten it, now I've learned to accept it and respect it.

 I'm not trying to say I don't want you, because I definitely do but I'm taking my heart back and leaving the pieces on the floor. Despite the memories I can't do this anymore.

Before I was so scared of losing you, of not being able to hear your voice, your laughter, feel your arms around me but now I know that those are things I wouldn't ever be able to forget, things I can't lose because they'll forever be a part of me and who I am.

Tremendous amount of memories we've created and I will treasure them and I never regret.

"If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience." -Victoria Holt

1 thing I can surely say is that you'll never be gone from my heart. Part of me will always love you. But it's okay, because I've let you go. I hope you'll have a great life. I know I will from now on.

It wasn't easy to cope I'll admit. But am kinda proud of myself that I've managed to pick myself to even reach to this level where I can even learn to accept your wish despite all of what mine are. 

You've helped me to grow up by teaching me a lot of things. Even now I find it hard to believe who I am right now compared to who I used to be when I first met you.

I thought I'd be singing it like,

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad ‒ go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes". - Love Story (Taylor Swift)

But who who'd have thought.

 “There is a time for departure, even when there is no certain place to go.”  -  Tennessee William

Probably this is my time to depart and search for my next destination while I watched you depart long time ago. 

"Written with a pen, sealed with a kiss" they say.

I didn't lose you. I let you go. I didn't get over you. I moved on. When you truly love someone, you never lose them or get over them. They'll always mean something to you.

Though there parts of me thinking that probably I didn't fight hard enough to safe what we had, but relationships are like glasses. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

However still, I am glad that it happened and no regrets about it. I still have 1 last wish though, while we work our ways to lead our own lives back on track, I'd just wish to have our last cup of coffee together to let things end on a nicer note.

I was turned down once but I'm asking for it once more. I understand and respect your decisions but this is just my last wish from you.

I am not sure how this post will effect you, regardless of whatever or however it does, I am sorry. I had no other way and keeping it within me was difficult. I'll always miss you.  Probably you could be one who who got away. No matter where you are, what you are doing, who you are with, or whatever, I will still care about you.

Because I Miss You ~

Yes I missed you! I've missed blogging and hell yea I letting myself out but what am I to do? I've landed a journalist job in Malaysia's Top News Agency Bernama and that practically have drained most of my time and basically writing news and honestly it kinda got to me alittle.

But I've decided to drop by and leave a little souvenir for all my readers who've still been visiting though obviously I went AWOL. Sorry guys. It's a coincident that I was thinking of blogging and I've got some free time! LOL

Anyways, my post is about a song that kinda captured my feelings in words and I just wanna share to all you guys.

PS: It ain't a new song though so don't be mad yea~



LYRICS

늘 똑같은 하늘에 늘 같은 하루
neul ttokgateun haneure neul gateun haru
그대가 없는 것 말고는 달라진 게 없는데
geudaega eomneun geot malgoneun dallajin ge eomneunde
난 웃고만 싶은데 다 잊은 듯이
nan utgoman sipeunde da ijeun deusi
아무일 아는 듯 그렇게
amuil aneun deut geureoke
웃으면 살고픈데
useumyeon salgopeunde
그리워 그리워서 그대가 그리워서
geuriwo geuriwoseo geudaega geuriwoseo
매일 난 혼자서만 그대를 부르고 불러봐요
maeil nan honjaseoman geudaereul bureugo bulleobwayo
보고파 보고파서 그대가 보고파서
bogopa bogopaseo geudaega bogopaseo
이제 난 습관처럼 그대 이름만 부르네요
ije nan seupgwancheoreom geudae ireumman bureuneyo
오늘도
oneuldo
난 보낸줄 알았죠 다 남김없이
nan bonaenjul aratjyo da namgimeobsi
아니죠 아니죠 난 아직 그대를 못 보냈죠
anijyo anijyo nan ajik geudaereul mot bonaetjyo
그리워 그리워서 그대가 그리워서
geuriwo geuriwoseo geudaega geuriwoseo
매일 난 혼자서만 그대를 부르고 불러봐요
maeil nan honjaseoman geudaereul bureugo bulleobwayo
보고파 보고파서 그대가 보고파서
bogopa bogopaseo geudaega bogopaseo
이제 난 습관처럼 그대 이름만 부르네요
ije nan seupgwancheoreom geudae ireumman bureuneyo
오늘도
oneuldo
하루하루가 죽을 것만 같은 어떻게 해야 해요
haruharuga jugeul geotman gateun eotteoke haeya haeyo
사랑해 사랑해요 그대를 사랑해요
saranghae saranghaeyo geudaereul saranghaeyo
말조차 못하고서 그대를 그렇게 보냈네요
maljocha motagoseo geudaereul geureoke bonaenneyo
미안해 미안해요 내말이 들리나요
mianhae mianhaeyo naemari deullinayo
뒤늣은 내 고백을 그댄 들을 수 있을까요
dwineuseun nae gobaegeul geudaen deureul su isseulkkayo
사랑해요
saranghaeyo
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TRANSLATION

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Always under exactly the same sky, always exactly the same day
Other than your not being here, there’s nothing different at all
I just want to smile, want to forget everything
Just like absolutely nothing has happened, smiling to live my days
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today
I thought I’d let go, not leaving anything behind
No, no, now I still can’t let you go
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today
Everyday, everyday, it feels like I’m gonna die, what should I do?
Love you, love you, I love you
I hadn’t even spoken the words, I just let you go
Sorry, sorry, do you hear my words
My late confession, can you hear it
I love you




Note: This post is not meant to make any of you all unhappy but just a simple message from me that if you love someone or have someone who loves you for real, don't give up without putting up a fight. True love is the hardest treasure amongst all to find and if you have it, cherish it before it becomes what you had. Even through the toughest times, your partner needs you even more than any other time, stick with them and ride the storm. It's just a matter of time that the storm goes away. Good luck! *wink*